FREE FROM DEBILITATING SILENCE

“You don’t often hear of the trauma associated with men involved in abortion. It's real! I encouraged my girlfriend to end her pregnancy. We were college students with no money to have or care for a baby. I thought I was supporting her, because I was by her side every step of the way. Little did I realize the pain and guilt that would come from our choice. For years I hid this sin, never speaking of it to anyone, pushing any thought of it to the back of my mind. But the longer it stayed undisclosed the worse my guilt grew. There wasn’t a push mighty enough to keep this secret from rearing its ugly head. Working long hours in my adult years didn’t make it go away. Immersing myself in meaningful projects within the church didn’t soothe my irritated conscience. I couldn’t make it disappear. I needed to grab hold of what God wanted to do in my life through a total surrender to Him, and I had to come face to face with the truth – I didn’t deserve it! Therein was the struggle for many years. God waited a long time for me to humble myself and accept what He so desperately wanted to give - the gift I didn’t deserve. Unfortunately, many years were wasted in a weak, unfulfilling relationship to Christ, yet, in His patience and mercy, I am full-on enjoying the victorious life. Man, whatever you do - don’t wait!” I am FREE!"  - Robert